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MEMORIES OF JOHN There are so many memories I do not even know where to begin. I never thought I would be writing this for you. We are soul mates and I thought we would be together for a much longer time.
Little did I know that you would be taken from me so suddenly last month. You called and said you thought you were having a heart attack on March 16, 2015. I came right over and called 911.
By the time I got to the hospital just a few minutes later and saw all the people in the room, I got really scared. They said you had an aortic dissection and there was nothing they could do to save you. On March 18th at 11:55 A.M. you passed. I am still numb and in shock.
I have been going through all the pictures and cards and letters from you. I am trying to set up a very beautiful memorial for you, but because of my grief over this sudden loss of you it is taking me a long time. John, you were the only man I ever truly loved, through thick and thin, good and bad, and all the times in between. I love and miss you so much. Your heart literally broke, and mine is broken because you are no longer with me. I got a small open heart charm that I put with Charity’s split heart charm that I am now wearing around my neck to symbolize 2 broken hearts. About 10 yrs. Ago you got me a Rainbows Bridge ring. About a week before you passed you turned it around on my finger so only the gold was showing and said that’s our wedding ring. I will treasure it always. You were the most loving, caring and giving person I ever knew. You cared about everybody and everything, but not enough about yourself. You loved fishing, playing chess, cards, going to the casino, watching the birds and ducks, and the mangoes growing on my tree by the canal. You and I also loved animals (especially, Charity) who passed on March 21st, 2003. You never stopped missing her and talked about her every week when we were playing cards. You were born at Brooklyn Jewish Hospital and I was born at Mercy Hospital (a Catholic Hospital).
I put this in for a reason. It will be explained in a story I wrote shortly after Charity passed. I don’t remember who it was, but I asked to submit a short story about Lost and Found Loves. I did write, but the person who asked for it only got 3 that were good, mine being one of them. I am going to put this story in next which will explain everything.
I just wrote Part 2 to Destiny as to all the changes since then.
I will always love you. Until we meet again.
Miriam DESTINY For all those who were teenagers back in the 1950's, and remember Alan Freed, American Bandstand and the “Submarine races, etc, this should be a story that brings back the “good old days”, and a lot of memories. I graduated High School in 1959 in a small town in Long Island, New York, My plans were to go to Nursing School in NYC in September. That summer, my dad, who was a manager in a department store got me a summer job. John, who was on a summer break from college, was working in the same store for the summer. He said that he first saw me pushing a rack of clothing into a stockroom, and knew instantly that I was the one for him. I first saw him in the employee lounge. It was instant chemistry for me. I remember the jukebox playing, “There Goes My Baby” by the Drifters. He came over to me and we started to talk as if there was not enough we could say to each other. I don't remember this, but he said I got his phone number out of his wallet. We kept meeting in the lounge, and he came to the floor where I worked many times. I made the first move by calling him and inviting him over, which was quite brazen in those days. I am Jewish and he is Catholic. Most parents were against that back then. We started dating and I knew I was in love. Before I started Nursing School, he got me a necklace with a silver chain and a silver heart with a pearl in the middle. For his birthday, which was 3 months later, I got him a tie tac with a small pearl in the middle which had gold around it.
My mom objected to the relationship, But I was stubborn and did not want to give him up. His mom wanted him to be a priest, and he was an only child. She was relentless in breaking us up. She succeeded after almost 2 years of this off again, on again relationship. I was heartbroken , and barely made it through nursing school. I didn't want to date anyone, but some of my classmates dragged me to a school dance, where I met someone on the rebound, and married him one year later. Of course, he was Jewish. On our first anniversary, I was in the hospital and gave birth to a baby boy. I knew it was not right from the beginning, but, believe it or not I stuck it out for 29 years. I had kept all of John's love letters, and read them every now and then. Just before my 50th birthday, in 1991, I became very nostalgic, and started trying to find old girlfriends from high school, which I did. In April of 1991, I saw a movie that was made for TV, called “For The First Time” with the theme song “For Your Precious Love”. It took place around 1959, and was about a Jewish boy and a Catholic girl. This relationship was broken up by the parents. They both married others, and many years later ran into each other. It was obvious that the love was still there, but they did nothing about it. Several weeks later, I was reading a novel and John's full name was a fictional character in the book. I felt that I was being given signs to find him. I had no idea what his situation was, or where he was. I was living in Florida at the time. I called information in New York, gave his name, and got a phone number. It took me about two more months to get up the nerve to find out what his situation was. I asked my sister to call. She found out that he was divorced, had 2 children, that he brought up himself and expressed his interest in talking to me. I had already decided I was finally going to leave the marriage. I called him, and it was like 30 years had just vanished. We talked continually for about 8 months. During this time we sent pictures of ourselves, family, and his 2 dogs and 1 cat, and my 3 cats, Faith, Hope, and Charity. Also, we talked about the necklace and tie tac, which he said that he could not find, and I sent him something similar for Christmas. My divorce was final in Dec, 1991. We agreed that I would fly to New York for a visit in Feb., 1992. During this visit, John found the missing tie tac. After this visit we were on the phone almost daily, and I made 4 more trips, and by the spring of 1993, after all the expenses of phone bills and airplane flights, we decided that I would move back to NY and live with him. I left my son with 2 of the cats, Faith and Hope who were sisters by birth. Charity was flown to NY several weeks later as she was my special friend. For the first birthday, I had back in N. Y., I found a ring that matched the necklace he got me so many years ago, and he got it for me for my birthday. During the first few years, John's daughter got married and divorced, and then became a police officer and is now a detective. His son, who was a Priest, left the priesthood, got married, had 3 children, and is now divorced. My son got married and divorced to the same person twice and is now living with her. Also during the first few years, my mom had to go from her condo to an assisted living facility, and is now in a nursing home in New Jersey, near my sister. John's mom is in an assisted living facility on Long Island. My aunt, who had her own apartment in N.Y., and was never married also had to be placed in a nursing home. She passed away in 2001. All the animals were gone, except for my Charity who was the little princess we both loved. In April of the year 2000, I had to get out of N.Y., and come back to Florida, as I was constantly getting sick. John was not ready to leave N. Y. I came back with Charity, and moved into an apartment complex close to my son. About 1 and a half years later, after 3 two week visits, and a continuing long distance relationship, John came down to Florida and got his own apt. in the same complex as mine. This was okay with me, because even though the love was there, we did have issues.. I was having financial difficulties due to job problems and needed surgery, and filed for disability in April of 2002, and then moved in with John. Do we have a perfect relationship? NO, of course not, who does? But, love is there. We have been through a lot together, especially because we are part of the “sandwich generation.” We just lost our little princess, which has affected us both deeply. We missed the 20's, 30's and 40's together, but for whatever time we have left, which destiny will determine, I believe we were meant to be together. DESTINY PART 2 There have been many changes since I wrote Destiny. John's son got remarried. My mother passed away in 2004 and John's mother passed away in 2009.
My son got divorced.
In June of 2003 John thought it was better if I lived with my son as there were many issues involved.
In November of 2003 I got a 3 y/o cat and named her Cami after Charity. She was also a Maine Coon.
She passed away in July, 2014.
Throughout all this John and I stayed very close and the love was always there. Due to aging and disabilities on both of our parts, we could no longer do a lot of the things we used to do. Now, the worst of all, on March 16, 2015, John had an aortic dissection and passed away on March 18th 2015. Now I do not know what my destiny is since all these losses and the shocking and sudden loss of John. All I can do is go day by day, and believe that John is with me in spirit and that we will meet again.
This is all very sad and lonely, but that is what Destiny has determined. Dear John,
I added some pictures today(Memorial Day) of your home Memorial that I did. The Rainbows Bridge ring, and the back which you called our wedding ring about a week before you passed. Your picture and memory album and some treasured items.In the dark blue box I have the 2 tie tacs, the pearl ring and necklace, the wings I got you after your first airplane trip, and the angel pin I gave you. I hope you can see this and that you like it. I am missing you so much and the feelings and pain do not stop.
Love always.
Miriam (05/25/2015) Dear John,
I hope you are doing and feeling well in Heaven. I miss and love you so much. It is Sunday and tomorrow will be 2 months since you passed. I've been writing in a journal and told you all about Mary's visit. I hope you were here in spirit. I keep looking for signs from you, but have not been able to pick up on any. Please send me some signs so I will know you are with me.
It is so very hard being without you.
Normally I would have been getting ready to come to your place now, but there is nothing normal now.
Wait for me with Charity & Cami.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam Dear John,
It is 3 months today since you went to Heaven. Not a moment goes by that I am not thinking of you. I hope you are doing well and enjoying Heaven. I miss you and love you so much and I always will. I don't think I will ever get over this, and anyone I talk to says I won't. So, I don't know what to do except live with memories. Marilyn sent me a beautiful poem which I just read to your picture. I hope you heard it and that somehow you will see this. The poem is called "When Tomorrow Starts without Me". It is too long to put on here, but so sad and so beautiful at the same time.
Wait for me with Charity, Cami, and all the other pets we had.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (06/18/2015) Dear John,
This is the Father's Day without you. I hope it will be a good one in Heaven for you. You are sorely loved & missed here. Happy Father's Day.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam
06/21/2015 Dear John,
It is 4 months today since you went to Heaven. Nothing has changed for me. It still feels like it was yesterday. I talk to you all the time and I do hope you hear me. I love you and miss you and always will. I am going 1 day at a time, but nothing changes. I am pretty sure you are with Charity, Cami, and all the pets we both had. Please wait for me there. Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (07/18/2015) Dear John,
It is now 5 months since you passed. I still feel the same way. I hope you are enjoying your afterlife. Things have been really tough here. Steve got very sick and was in the hospital for 5 days. It turnrd out to be food poisoning from chicken that was undercooked. He is still not himself, but hopefully on the road to recovery. I am really wiped out from your passing and I was so scared I would lose him too. Of course this has put us in more financial trouble. I wish you could send something from Heaven. I talk to you all the time and I hope you hear me. I love you and miss you so much.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (08/18/2015) Dear John,
It is now 6 whole long months since you went to Heaven. I cannot stop thinking about you and loving and missing you. I really lost a part of myself which I am sure went with you. I still talk to you all the time, but unfortunately cannot hear your voice or hold your hand anymore.
Steve is feeling better now, thank God. Twice over the last week I went into 2 places that had the radio on and both times "I Will Always Love You" came on. Were those signs from you? I hope so. My birthday is in 5 days. It will be the 1st without you in many years. I put out 1 of the cards you had given me before. I hope you will let me know you are with me in spirit.
I hope you are at peace in the afterworld and still at Rainbows Bridge with Charity, Cami and all the pets we had. Please wait there for me.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (09/18/2015) Dear John,
It is now 7 months since you went to Heaven. I still think about you all the time and talk to your picture. I sure wish you could answer me. I will never stop loving and missing you. I keep looking for signs from you, but if you're sending them I just am not getting them. I again hope you are at peace in the afterworld, and still with Charity & Cami and all the other pets we had.
Today is Sunday and if you were still here I would be coming to your place. You might be interested to know that the Dolphins have been losing and last week the head coach was fired and today will be the 1st game with a new coach. Wish we could see it together like we always did.
Again, please wait for me at R.B.
All the holidays are coming up, but I am not really looking forward to them without you.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (10/18/2015) Dear John,
Today is 8 months since you went to Heaven. My thoughts and feelings are always with you. I keep talking to you and wish you could answer me. I am still not aware of any signs you may be sending. Please keep trying. I hope you are happy and at peace in Heaven, and still with Charity, Cami, and all the pets we have. I love you and miss you more than you know. Next week is Thanksgiving and you know I lost both my dad and aunt on that day, different years, and this is the first without you in many years. Very bittersweet. I hope you all have a good one in Heaven, and hopefully will be with me & Steve in spirit.
Until we meet again.
Love always.
Miriam (11/18/2015) Dear John,
Happy Thanksgiving to you and all my loved ones in Heaven. I am hoping you will all be with us in spirit today. Miss you, miss you, and love you.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (11/26/2015) Dear John,
It is 9 months today since you went to Heaven. I am still not doing well without you. I still talk to you(silently) and will probably never stop loving & missing you. I sure hope you are enjoying the afterlife, feel well, and are happy. I will be writing several times in the next 2 wks. Your birthday, Christmas, and New Years. Nothing is the same without you.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (12/18/2015) Dear John,
Happy, happy birthday. Now I can say it. I would rather you were still here and not say it. For the last # of years you didn't want anyone to say it. I hope all is well with you and that you are having a big party in Heaven. I love you and miss you so much.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (12/23/2015) Dear John,
Merry Christmas in Heaven. I hope you are well and enjoying it. I miss you and love you and I am sorry we are not together today. Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (12/25/2015) Dear John,
Happy New Years to you in Heaven. This is the first without you in 24 yrs. I could not stop thinking about you and some of the past ones when we were together. Very sad. Love you and miss you as always.
Love always,
Miriam (01/01/2016) Dear John,
It is now 10 months since you went to Heaven. I hope you are doing very well. I will never stop loving and missing you, and silently talking to you. Things have been very tough here, but I don't want to write about that now.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (01/18/2016) Dear John,
Happy Valentine's Day to you in Heaven from me. The last card I got from you was last year on Valentine's Day. I will be looking at it today with loving memories. I have not been able to get you off my mind. I love you and miss you.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (02/14/2016) Dear John,
It is 11 months today since you went to Heaven. I hope you are happy and feeling well. I talk to your picture many times during the day and wish you could answer me. I will never stop loving and missing you.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (02/18/2016) Dear John,
It is 1 yr. today since you went to Heaven. That is so hard for me to believe. I remember every detail of that time, and probably will never forget it. I love you and miss you so much.I hope you are happy where you are and feeling like your old self. I keep talking to you daily and hope you hear me.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (03/18/2016) Dear John,
It is 13 months today since you went to Heaven. As always I hope you are well and happy. Judy & Ed were here for a few days. We went to a movie and suddenly "Smoke gets in your Eyes" came on and I started crying and couldn't stop for the rest of the movie. Then on the way home we were sitting at a light. I was in the back of the rental car and we got hit from behind. Thank God, we did not get hurt. Maybe you gave me 2 signs, with the song and making sure we were ok. I hope so. I told you when talking to your picture as I always do. I can't stop missing you and loving you. I don't think I ever will.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (04/18/2016) Dear John,
It is 14 months today since you went to Heaven. I do hope you are well and happy. I talk to your picture all the time and keep wishing you could answer me. I cannot stop loving and missing you.
There are so many things that go on and I so miss being able to discuss them with you. As far as I know there have not been any more signs. Please let me know you are with me in spirit.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (05/18/2016). Dear John,
It is the 2nd Memorial Day without you. I put a flag that Steve got today with your Memorial in the den. I hope somehow you know I did and can see it. I hope you are feeling well and happy in Heaven. I still am not sure what to do with the rest of my life without you. You are always on my mind and I miss you terribly. I don't think that will ever change.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (05/30/2016) Dear John,
15 months today since you have been in Heaven. As always, I hope you are well & happy there. I will not stop missing you, loving you , and needing you. I still keep talking to you and hope you do hear me. Since tomorrow is Father's Day, I also wish you a Happy Father's Day in Heaven.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (06/18/2016) Dear John,
16 months today since you've been in Heaven. I really hope you are well and happy there. I will never stop loving, missing, and needing you. I talk to you all the time and do hope you hear me. You were right about the world. Everything is messed up. Please watch over me.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (07/18/2016) Dear John,
17 months today since you have been in Heaven. As always I hope you are happy & well there. I still talk to you all the time and hope you hear me. I will never stop loving, missing, wanting, and needing you. Please keep watching over Steve and myself. We do need divine assistance.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (08/18/2016) Dear John,
It is exactly 18 months at this moment since you went to Heaven. As always I hope you are well and happy there. It is Sunday and the Dolphins are playing today. I would have been coming to your place at half-time if you were still here. I cannot ever stop loving, missing, wanting and needing you. Please send us some Divine Assistance as we really need it.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (09/18/2016) Dear John,
It is now 19 months since you went to Heaven. I do hope you are still well and happy there. My life has been so empty since you left. I will never stop loving, missing wanting and needing you. NEVER!!!!!!!!!!
I hope you hear me when I talk to you which I do everyday. We still need some Divine Assistance, now more than ever. Please send some and keep watching over Steve and I.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (10/18/2016) Dear John, It is 20 months today since you went to Heaven. As I always say, I do hope you are well and happy there. Nothing has changed for me. It is so lonely since you left. I will never stop missing, loving, wanting & needing you. Also, I do hope you hear me when I talk to you everyday. Please, as always keep watching over Steve and me.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (11/18/2016) Dear John,
It is now the 2nd Thanksgiving without you. I do hope you are with all of my loved ones and yours, and are having a big party and enjoy it. Steve and I miss you so much. When we have our dinner I hope you will be with us in spirit. I love and miss you more than you will ever know.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (11/24/2016) Dear John,
It is 21 months today since you went to Heaven. It seems like so long ago, and yet it seems like yesterday. I do hope you are well and happy there. In a few days it would have been your birthday here and in 1 week it will be Christmas. Nothing is right for me without you. With some urging from Steve I put up the tree as a tribute and memorial to you. I hope you can see it. I hope you will be with us in spirit and that I will know it. I will never stop loving and missing you.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (12/18/2016) Dear John,
Happy, Happy Birthday to you in Heaven. I cannot stop thinking about how much nicer it would be if you were here. I hope you have a big party in Heaven. Again, I hope you are well and happy there. I love and miss you everyday. Please be with us in spirit and somehow let me know it.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (12/23/2016) Dear John,
Merry Christmas & Happy Hanukkah. I hope you are enjoying the holidays in Heaven with all of our pets, families etc. Steve and I miss you all so very much. I hope you will all be with us in Spirit for dinner tonight and let us know. I love and miss you as always.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (12/25/2016) Dear John,
Happy 2017. As always, I hope you are well & happy in Heaven. I will never stop loving and missing you. I hope you are celebrating with all our families and pets. If possible, please be with Steve and I in spirit.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (01/01/2017) Dear John,
It is 22 months today since you went to Heaven, Hope you are well & happy. You have no idea how much I miss you and love you everyday. Last night I watched a movie about a couple who were high school sweethearts. They went to a reunion 20 yrs. later. Of course they ended up getting married. It made me cry and I wanted so much to be with you. I keep talking to your picture and hoping you hear me.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (01/18/2017) Dear John,
Happy Valentine's Day to you in Heaven. I sure wish we were together today. Nothing is the same without you. I love you and miss you so much.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (02/14/2017) Dear John,
It is 23 months today since you went to Heaven. As always, I hope you are well and happy. I keep getting images of so many of the times we spent together throughout the years. I wish we could go back and start over again. I will never stop loving and missing you. I hope somehow you are with me in spirit as I am writing this.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (02/18/2017) Dear John,
I cannot believe it is 2 yrs. today since you went to Heaven. As always I hope you are well & happy. I just wish you were still here with me. I love you and miss you all the time. I talk to you everyday and hope you hear me. I hope your spirit is here right now as I am writing this. I really have not moved on since you left. I wish I could, but it very difficult.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (03/18/2017 Dear John,
I just wanted to wish you a Happy Easter in Heaven. I hope you are well and happy and enjoying it. As always I love and miss you so much. I could use some divine assistance and wisdom right now. Please send me some.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (04/16/2017) Dear John,
It is 2 yrs. and 1 month today since you went to Heaven. I probably will never stop counting as my feelings for you will never change. As always, I hope you are well and happy.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (04/18/2017) Dear John.
It is now 2 yrs. and 2 months since you went to Heaven. As always I hope you are well and happy. I cannot stop thinking about you and everything that happened, but I do keep remembering the good times we had together.
I love and miss you so very much everyday and keep wishing you were still here. We are doing somewhat better now. If you had anything to do with it, Thank You.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (05/18/2017) Dear John,
This is the 3rd Memorial Day without you. I have so many memories of our being together on this day. I remember moving up to N.Y. in 1993 to stay with you. I have cards, letters, pictures, gifts, but not you. Just memories and loneliness. I hope you are having a good one today and everyday. I love you and miss you terribly.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (05/29/2017) Dear John,
Just stopping by to wish you a Happy Father's Day in Heaven. As always I love and miss you everyday. I hope you are well and happy in Heaven. Please watch over your son and mine. I talk to you all the time and hope you hear me. It is also 27 months since you went to Heaven today.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam(06/18/2017) Dear John,
It is 28 months today since you went to Heaven. Too long for me to be without you. I love and miss you everyday. I talk to your picture everyday. As always, I hope you are well and happy where you are. I just keep wishing this had never happened. Please watch over us.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (07/18/2017) Dear John,
We are now up to 29 months today since you went to Heaven. I still love and miss you so much everyday. Still talking to your picture. Of course I pray that you are well and happy where you are. Please keep watching over us.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (08/18/2017. Dear John,
It is now 30 months(2 and 1/2 yrs.)since you went to Heaven. Still praying you are well and happy there. I have never stopped loving and missing you for a day. I still talk to you all the time and hope somehow you hear me. We just went through Hurricane Irma and it was terrible and frightening. Did have some damage and still waiting on 1 car to see if it can be fixed. Please keep watching over us and help things to get back to normal.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (09/18/2017) Dear John,
It is now 31 months since you went to Heaven. Here's hoping you are well and happy there. This whole world has just turned into a mess. I will never stop loving and missing you. I still talk to your picture many times throughout the day and hope you hear me.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (10/18/2017) Dear John,
I cannot believe it is 32 months since you went to Heaven. As always, I hope you are well and happy there. I love and miss you as much as ever. That will never change. I still keep talking to your picture everyday and hope you hear me. It's been a rough month with Steve. I won't go into details here, but it has been very scary. Please send us some divine assistance.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (11/18/2017) Dear John,
This is the 3rd Thanksgiving without you. I have been talking to your picture wishing you were here. I hope you heard me. I also hope you are with your family and mine and all our pets having a beautiful Thanksgiving, and I also hope you will all be with us in spirit today. I love and miss you as always.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (11/23/2017) Dear John,
It is 33 months today since you went to Heaven. My friend, Jeanne is in Heaven now too. I hope you see her. I hope , as always, that you are well and happy there, but I cannot stop missing you and wishing it had never happened.We still need a lot of divine assistance here. As always , I love and miss you so much.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (12/18/2017) Dear John.
Happy Birthday to you. If you were still here it would have been your 78th. I said it to your picture so many times today. I hope you do celebrate in Heaven. As always I hope you are well and happy, and I will never stop loving you and missing you.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (12/23/2017) Dear John,
Merry Christmas to you in Heaven. I hope you will be with all of yours and my loved ones and have a big celebration. I keep looking at your picture and wishing you a Merry Christmas. I hope you know that.
I will never stop loving and missing you.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (12/25/2017) Dear John,
Happy New Year to you in Heaven It is 2018 here. I don't know what it is in Heaven. I keep looking at your picture and wishing you a Happy New Year. I wish I knew if you heard me. I love and miss you so much and sure wish you were still here now.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (01/01/2018) Dear John,
It is so hard to believe it is 34 months since you went to Heaven. I still keep talking to your picture and asking for Divine Assistance. The problems just do not go away. Steve also said to say hello and he also misses you a lot. I hope you are well and happy. I love and miss you everyday, and probably always will.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (01/18/2918) Dear John,
This is the 3rd Valentine's Day without you here. I love you and miss you so much and just keep wishing you were here with me today. Happy Valentine's Day to you in Heaven. I hope somehow you see this.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (02/14/2018) Dear John,
Hello again. It is 35 months since you went to Heaven. So hard for me to believe. Nothing has changed. As always I love and miss you all the time. I sure hope it is a better place as most people say, and you are well and happy. I wish we could turn the clocks back until before this happened and we could be together again.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (02/18/2018) Dear John,
It is so hard to believe that it is 3 yrs. today since you went to Heaven. Believe it or not, this is even harder for me to get through as I still love and miss you so much everyday. I hope you are with me in spirit as I am writing this. Of course, I always wish you are well and happy in Heaven. I still keep talking to your picture and hope you hear me. I know we cannot go back, but still wish we could. Nothing has changed since you left, except the world, which is quite a mess and many horrific things have happened here in S. Florida. Take care of yourself and Charity.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (03/18/2018. Dear John,
Three years and 1 month today. Still unbelievable to me. I just asked you to be with me in spirit while I am writing to you. I hope you are. As always I hope you are well and happy in Heaven. I love and miss you everyday and it seems like it is getting worse and harder for me to deal with as time goes on. We could really use some Divine Assistance at this time.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (04/18/2018) Dear John,
Three years and 2 months today since you went to Heaven. I cannot stop loving and missing you. I hope you are with me in spirit right now. Of course, I hope you are well and happy in Heaven. I talk to your picture all the time,and tell you how much I wish you were still here. You would not recognize the world as it is now. So many things have changed and not for the better. We still could use some Divine Assistance here if you can.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (05/18/2018) Dear John,
Just stopping by to wish you a Happy Father's Day in Heaven. Hope you all have a big party there. Tomorrow will also be 3 yrs. and 3 months since you went to Heaven. As always I love and miss you all the time and keep talking to your picture. I sure hope you hear me.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (06/17/2018) Dear John,
It is 3 yrs. and 4 months today since you went to Heaven.I cannot stop missing and loving you everyday. You are in my heart and mind all the time. Of course, I hope you are well and happy in Heaven. I also hope you are with me in spirit even though I cannot feel your presence. I wish I could.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (07/18/2018) Dear John,
It is now 3 yrs. and 5 months since you went to Heaven. Hope you are well and happy there. I also hope that somehow you see this and hear me when I talk to your picture. I do not think I will ever stop loving and missing you. We could use some divine assistance here if you can send some.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (08/18/2018) Dear John,
I cannot believe it is 3 1/2 yrs. today. since you went to Heaven. As always I hope you are well and happy there. I still talk to your picture daily and hope somehow you hear me. Nothing has changed for me. I will always love and miss you.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (09/18/2018) Dear John,
Sorry I missed last month, but things have been very hectic around here. It is 3 yrs. and 8 months today since you went to Heaven. As always I hope you are well and happy there. I love you and miss you as much as ever. I just hope you are with me in spirit. Nothing has really changed for me. I don't know if it ever will, except I am getting older and it not fun.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (11/18/2018) Dear John,
This is the 4th Thanksgiving without you here. I love and miss you so very much. I remember all the Thanksgivings we spent together. I hope you and our families and all our pets are together celebrating.
I asked if you could all be with Steve and I in spirit today and let us know it.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (11/22/2018) Dear John,
It is 3 yrs. and 9 months today since you went to Heaven. In some ways it seems like forever and sometimes it feels like it was yesterday. I hope you are well and happy there. I will never stop missing and loving you.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (12/18/2018) Dear John,
Happy, Happy, 79th birthday to you in Heaven. I sure wish you were here so we could celebrate together. Hope you are having a big party in Heaven. As always I hope you are well and happy. I love and miss you so much everyday.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (12/23/2018. Dear John,
I just wanted to wish you a very Merry Christmas in Heaven. I've been saying it to your picture since yesterday. I have so many memories of the Christmas's we had together, and just wish we were together.
I hope you enjoy the day in Heaven with all of our families and pets. I will always love you.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (12/25/2018) Dear John,
I want to wish you a very Happy New Years, 2019, in Heaven. Again I was talking to your picture and telling you how much I wish we were together. I hope you had a big party last night, and were with all of our loved ones. I also hope you are well and happy, and I will never stop missing you.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (01/01/2019) Dear John,
It is now 46 months since you went to Heaven. I love and miss you so very much. I hope you are well and happy in Heaven, as I always do. I still talk to your picture everyday. I hope you hear me.
My feelings for you will never change. I really hope you are with me in spirit.
Until we meet again.
Love,
Miriam (01/18/2019) Dear John,
I tried to wish you a Happy Valentine's Day last week, but for some reason it did not go in. Anyway I kept wishing we could have been together and thought about it all that day.
Today is 47 months since you went to Heaven. I have never stopped loving and missing you and probably never will. Of course I hope you are well and happy in Heaven and are with me in spirit.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (02/18/2019) Dear John,
It is FOUR yrs. today since you went to Heaven. I have a candle lit with your picture and a prayer book next to it, and have said prayers today. You know I wish that you are well and happy in Heaven, but I still love and miss you so much everyday. I always hope you are with me in spirit. I just wish it had never happened and you were still here with me.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (03/18/2019) Dear John.
I hope that you are having a great afterlife up there in heaven. Four yrs ago, you left us and I miss you very much. You have always been a father to me. And I believe that you were my real father before this lifetime my mom and I are living now. I am looking forward to seeing you again someday when it is my time to come over there.
Love Forever
Steve 3-18-2019 Dear John,
Four yrs. and 1 month today. Hoping you are well and happy in Heaven, I will always love you and miss you. Steve also misses you a lot. This Sunday is Easter, and I wish you a Happy Easter in Heaven.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (04/18/2919) Dear John,
Four years and 2 months today since you went to Heaven. Still hoping you are well and happy in Heaven. I have never stopped loving and missing you. Having a hard time moving on.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (05/18/2019) Dear John,
Just stopping by to wish you a Happy Father's Day in Heaven. Obviously I hope you are happy and well in Heaven. But I sure cannot stop loving and missing you. That will never change.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (06/16/2019) Dear John,
Four years and 3 months today since you went to Heaven. I love and miss you so much everyday, and when I get up in the morning and realize you are not here it just hurts so bad. Hoping you are well and happy in Heaven
Love always,
Miriam (06/18/2019) Dear John,
Four years and 4 months today. As always I hope you are well and happy in Heaven. Nothing here has changed for me. I love and miss you everyday. I hope you do hear me when I talk to you.
Love always,
Miriam (07/18/2019) Dear John,
Four years and 5 months today. As always I have not stopped loving and missing you. Hope you are still well and happy in Heaven.
Love always,
Miriam 08/18/2019) Dear John,
I cannot believe it is 4 1/2 yrs. since you went to Heaven. I do hope you are well and happy there. I cannot stop missing and loving you, and wishing you were still here. I talk to you everyday, but am not sure if you can hear me. Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (09/18/2019) Dear John,
Four years and 7 months today since you went to Heaven. Hope you are well and happy there. I cannot stop thinking about you and wishing you were still here. I am having a rough time right now and need surgery for Ca. of my eyelid. I sure could use some divine assistance at this time. I hope you can do that. I am still talking to you daily and hope you hear me.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (10/18/2919) Dear John,
Four years and 8 months today since you went to Heaven. As always I hope you are well and happy there. I sure wish you were here now with me. My surgery is this Friday. Please be with me in spirit and make sure everything goes well. Thank you. I am always talking to you and I sure hope you hear me.
Until we meet again.
Love always,
Miriam (11/19/2019) Dear John,
I am sorry I missed a few occasions as I was not feeling well. Four years and 9 months, Thanksgiving, and your birthday tomorrow, and Christmas and New Years. Hope they are all happy for you. I love and miss you all the time. Thank you for the spiritual help you have been giving me. Much appreciated.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (12/22/2019) Dear John,
Four years and 10 months today. As always, I hope you are well and happy in Heaven and spending a lot of time with Charity. You know how much I love and miss you everyday. I just wish you were still here with me. Again, thank you for the spiritual help you have been giving me.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (01/18/2020) Dear John,
Four years and 11 months today since you went to Heaven. I pray you are well and happy there and enjoying Charity's company. I will never stop loving and missing you. Again I thank you for your spiritual help and I know you know what is needed.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam(02/19/2020) Dear John,
FIVE long years today since you went to Heaven. As always I pray you are well and happy. Everything here on earth is pretty bad right now. The world is in a crisis due to a pandemic crisis. Please keep being with me in spirit as you have been doing. I love and miss you as always.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (03/18/2020) Dear John,
I wanted to wish you a Happy Easter in Heaven. Things on Earth on not very happy now due to the corona pandemic. I love and miss you as much as ever, and appreciate the spiritual help you are giving me.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (04/12/2020) Dear John,
Five yrs. and one month since you went to Heaven. Nothing is getting better here on earth. Still missing you and loving you as always. Please keep being with me is spirit as you have been doing. Hoping you are happy and well in Heaven.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (04/18/2020)
Dear John,
Five yrs. and 2 months today since you went to Heaven, Things are really bad here on Planet Earth, You probably would not want to be here. Just please keep being with me in spirit. That helps some. As always I love and miss you everyday. Hope you are well and happy in Heaven.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (05/18/2020)
Dear John,
Five yrs. and 3 months today since you went to Heaven. Things on Earth are still bad. I will never stop loving and missing you. Hope you are well and happy in Heaven. Please keep being with me in spirit.
Say hello to everyone for me.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (06/18/2020) Dear John.
I just wanted to wish you a very Happy Father's Day. I hope you enjoy the day and get to see your father and mine.
Nothing has changed here. Lots of problems on Earth.
As always, I love and miss you terribly.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (06/21/2020) Dear John,
Five years and 4 months today since you went to Heaven. I will never stop missing and loving you. Hope all is well in Heaven. Things on Earth are still bad with this pandemic. I don't know if it will ever change. Very difficult to live this way.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (07/18/2020) Dear John,
Five years and 5months since you went to Heaven. As always, I hope you are well and happy and at peace. Things here are really bad. I love and miss you so very much.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (08/18/2020) Dear John,
Five and a half years today since you went to Heaven. I still miss you and love you so much. I talk to you daily and feel like you are hearing me. Hoping you are well and happy where you are. Everything on this planet is so messed up and I do not know if things are ever going to change. You would not like it here now.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (09/18/2020) Dear John,
Well another month has gone by. Nothing here has changed. You know I will always love you and miss you. As always I hope you are well and happy in Heaven. Just please keep being with me in spirit.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (10/18/2020) Dear John,
It is now November and nothing here has changed. Everything is getting worse. We could really use some divine assistance. As always I hope you are well and happy in Heaven, and I will always love you and miss you. Please keep being with me in spirit.
Love always,
Until we meet again. Miriam (11/18/2020
Dear John,
Just wanted to wish you a very Happy Thanksgiving Day in Heaven. It is 6 yrs. since we spent this day together. Hope you will be with us in spirit. As always, I love and miss you.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam (11/26/2020)
Dear John,
It is the holiday season and I sure wish you were here with me. I had a dream last night about you and a cat(not sure which one) and I cannot remember much else. Nothing has changed on this planet since I last wrote to you. As always I hope you are well and happy in Heaven, and I will always love and miss you.Please keep staying with me in spirit.
Love always,
Until we meet again.
Miriam(12/18/2020 Dear John,
Just stopping by to wish you a very Happy Birthday in Heaven. Hoping you will enjoy your day. Would be nice if you were still here and could celebrate together. As always love you and miss you.
Love always,
Miriam
Until we meet again. (12/23/2020) Dear John,
I hope you are having a Merry Christmas in Heaven. I still ,and always will miss you and love you. If you can be with me in spirit I guess I will have to settle for that.
Love always,
Miriam
Until we meet again. (12/25/2020) Dear John,
Happy New Year, 2021 in Heaven. You know the rest, love you, miss you, and wish we were still together on Earth.
Love always,
Miriam (12/31/2020) Dear John,
Well, it is now 5 yrs. and 9 months since you went to Heaven. I sure hope it is better there than it is here right now. Of course, I love you and miss you as much as ever.
Love always,
Miriam
Until we meet again.(01/18/2021) Dear John,
Sorry I missed Valentine's Day, but I must have wished it to you over and over. Today is 5 yes. and 11 monthe since you went to Heaven. As always I hope you are well and happy there. I love and miss you as much as ever.
Love always,
Miriam (02/18.2021)
Until we meet again. Dear John,
I am sorry I missed last month which was 6 yrs since you went to Heaven, but I have not been feeling well. I hope,as always, that you are well and happy there. I still love and miss you as much as ever, Please stay with me in spirit.
Love always,
Miriam (04/18/2021
Until we meet again. Dear John,
A very 82 nd birthday to you in Heaven. Again I have the last few months as I have been sick and in the hospital. I do have a lot of physical things wrong right now. I do not want to get into them today though.
i just hope young are well and happy and as always that I love and miss you everyday.
Love always,
Miriam
Until we meet again.(12/23/2021) Dear John,
It is now 6 yrs. and 10 months since I last saw you before you left for Heaven. You have been on my mind constantly. I guess I will miss you and love you always, and hope when I leave here you will be waiting for me.Please stay well and be happy. Maybe you can say some prayers for me as I still am not feeling that well. I would appreciate that.
Love always,
Miriam
Until we meet again. (01/18/2022. Dear John,
Well today is 7 yrs. since you went to Heaven. Feels like such a long time to me. I still love you and miss you everyday. I talk to you every night and hope you hear me. I am still not feeling too well and could use some prayers from you too.
Love always,
Miriam
Until we meet again. (03.18.2022)
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